Upside down and Backwards

I am ruled by opposites.

I feel like a negative representation of a person--like when you invert the colors on a picture.

I hold beliefs that I don't want so that I may be convinced that they are wrong.  Determinism is a great example of that.  I don't want to believe it, but its just too convincing at the moment.

And in my introspective-outrospective moments I more often think about what image I don't want to portray than what I actually want to be.